25 Oct '12

"25'10'12"
Yeah...I think it one of special moments that I have in my life. It's the second chance that GOD gives to me to make a special relationship with someone after I had broken heart more than a year before. Actually....I have never imagined before that I can open my heart for another coz I was very very very down when my ex-bf broke up our relationship whereas I loved him so much. But...day by day, when I was in proccess to fix my heart...at that time...GOD let me to know someone named Panji Aditya, who is the brother of my friend. Firstly....I though that I just wanna be his friend, no more...!! Yeah no more than a friend...!!! I though that I wasn't ready yet to stay in a new relationship... and beside that I also though that he loved another, not me...
A few months passed and we were getting closer...he was always there when I needed someone to listen my problem especially about my feelings with my ex-bf. He was very patient to listen me and he gave me support to be move on. It made me very happy to have a friend like him...till One day... evrything between me and him was changed...He said that He loves me and he asked me to be his gf.....Hmmmm I didn't know what I have to say...I didn't know how to answer...He was very kind to me, and I did't bear to hurt him...but beside that I was really not sure about my feeling...honestly I was very confused..I didn't know why..but a part of my heart still believed that my ex-bf whould be hurt..and I didn't wanna hurt him :(
I always pray and pray more about that...  Till one day..I have sure that my life must go on even though without my ex-bf..
I tried to keep positive thinking...then I decided to totally fixed my heart and started a new chapter of my life with another one who loves me as I'm....
I though Panji Aditya was the answer of my prayer...
And Finally I pray...wish it was the best decision..I hope his love is a sincere love and so do I... I wanna bring our relationship always grow up in JESUS' Love foundation ^_^